No Cancer!

I got the news last Wednesday and in my excitement, I forgot to share this with you. Mama's cancer-free!

Thank God! Now, I realize I really must look after my health. Let's start by making healthier food choices, yes?

Love you chipmunks :)

Waiting Day 1

I get my CA blood test results after 3 days.

On the first day of waiting (yesterday), I feel so blessed for having your dad. It's nice to feel needed and loved. I know that deep down, he's scared as much as I am, maybe even more, but he's been very supportive and has been my rock these past few days.

We are such big dorks, don't you agree?

I sent him a note, a line from John Green's The Fault in Our Stars (a book turned movie about cancer patients falling in love):

"I'll fight it. I'll fight it for you. Don't you worry about me... I'm okay. I'll find a way to hang around and annoy you for a long time."

And I mean every word.

I love you, chipmunks. Kiss dad for me, okay?

Spare a moment and pray for me

Weeks ago, my latest OB who helped me give birth to Miko, Dra. Olivarez, had me undergo transvaginal and breast ultrasound procedures. No indications, she just mentioned that cervical and breast cancers are two of the most common kinds that we need to watch out for, hence the request.

So I went and a small node was found on my right breast. It was rated "probably benign". Probably. One word that started my paranoia. If it was probably benign, was it probably malignant too?

My next visit to my OB, I was with Miko, and I wanted to have cervical cancer vaccine, and ofcourse to ask her opinion on the result of my breast ultrasound. The whole checkup seems like a blur, but I remember her saying that I'm too young to get a mammogram. She ordered a CA153 blood test instead. I think this is a marker for cancer. Normally, I would go all out and read all I can google on this, but to be honest, I'm scared.

All I keep thinking is how young you all are. Who will take care of you, how will you grow up?

I ask you now to spare a moment and pray for me, that the test will come out negative. I'm really really scared and I'm trying not to be, holding on to this verse for now --

Philippians 4:6 NASB
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.

I love you chipmunks. I hope God gives me the grace to stay with you until you go old.

The First Phone Call from Heaven

Hi chipmunks!

So I'm reading this book of the same title from Mitch Albom. It tells a story of a small town receiving phone calls from dead people from heaven.

It got me thinking -- if we are able to talk to Lolo Romy, or your great-Lolo Mac and great-Lola Eñang, what would they say? Are they happy with how our family has turned out? Are they proud of us?

Well I know that whatever it is you're doing, as long as you're happy and it is within God's commandments, I know I will be proud of you. I would definitely tell you that I miss you. And that I love you.

What else should I tell you when I'm gone? What would you want to hear?

My Monday madness

Just wanted to share this --

Every Monday, I facilitate a meeting with our managers, senior managers and managing directors. I get so nervous that I sacrifice my lunch juat to prep for this meeting.

So, just like today, I pumped milk and ate my lunch using one hand just so I can maximize my time away from my desk. Pathetic, I know, but I kinda like the pressure. It's like an instant adrenaline surge. Downside? I usually feel too tired when all tasks have died down and I'm going home.

They say buko juice increases milk supply. And it's a natural energy booster -- a natural Gatorade, if you must. My baon cooked by your dad last night. Sarap! I love him for this :)

Give mama a kiss okay? Pang-tanggal pagod.

I love you, chipmunks!