Kuma Adonai hoshi'eni elohai

"Rise up, O Lord, save me, O my God"

When, how will you choose to deliver me, Lord?

I feel I am being used. Is this all I am worth?

Is this Your message for me this morning?

"To forgive means to cancel the debt. It doesn’t mean pretending that nothing wrong was done. It means acknowledging that wrong has been done, but you don’t expect the person to pay it back anymore. There's nothing that I blame you for. "

- Ptr. Joseph Bonifacio

Achievement Unlocked: Single Mom (Part 7)

You know what love is? Love is not about not being able to live without another person. It is being able to -- but not wanting to.

I, you need to be strong. You need to be brave. If there is one thing that I want to ingrain in you, it's no one should be able to make you feel that you are incapable of achieving any thing you set your mind to. As long as you do not step on other people, I will support you all the way, love. I grew up insecure and weak, and look at where I ended up. While I am thankful despite it all coz I ended up with my three chipmunks, I want you to be better and stronger than me. I want you to be brave and face up to your fears -- and I will be beside you every step of the way.

I love you, chipmunks. Let's stick together, shall we?

Achievement Unlocked: Single Mom (Part 6)

So today, Sunday, I dreaded waking up to lolo and lola's inquiry and advices for last night's ruckus. Unfortunately, they had their own quarrel in the morning so lola and I didn't talk about our husbands.

All the while, I was thinking, abuse is hidden, not talked about, swept under the rug. We pretend it doesn't exist and pray that it will just go away.

We made it through the day, we went to church and ate 3x a day, all without the help your dad. So there goes the title of this blog series -- I CAN BE A SINGLE PARENT, if needed. It is difficult, yes, but it can be done.

TO BE CONCLUDED.