April 2 - Smoking

We have a family history of diabetes and stroke in our family. It is clear that I start with this because I want this message to be clear -- I don't want you to smoke.

Smoking does absolutely nothing good for you. It is an addiction that brings with it a plethora of associated diseases.

I'm feeling this passionatw about smoking today because yesterday we caught your dad smoking a cigarette at the store. It makes me so angry because I feel like he keeps forgetting about the two times when he almost died. It might sound narcissistic, but it was my battle, too. I underwent a lot of stress during those times, too. I was so scared of losing dad and having to raise you guys by myself. So him, just throwing all of those away, really gets into my nerves. It's beyond angry, it makes me not want to care anymore. Ofcourse I can't really not care. He's still my husband. But it just makes me 😡🤬😡🤬😡🤬

Bottomline, no smoking please. Cigarettes, vape, weed, anything. None of those. Try to live a healthy life, a happy life, please. I love you all too much to watch you throw your life away. 

Te quiero!

Update: 

Adding my tags, I saw this. And it might be God's way of saying to forgive dad just as He has forgiven us and even sent His son to die for us. Ugh, Lord, some times it's difficult to follow You. But, I will do my best.

April 1

Today I start the day grateful -- 

1. For a restful sleep

2. For (although it was a difficult workday yesterday), I am more hopeful today

3. For the opportunity to have a leisure day, regardless if I want to do "work" stuff like trim nails, answer email, pay bills, etc -- basta leisurely

I hope I feel better today than yesterday. I know spending time with you will do just that. 😍

how am I

I feel like I do nothing but work this week. I wake up, I start work, then I feel sleepy immediately after logging out of work ☹ is this another symptom of depression?

It makes me feel guilty that I don't spend time with you. 

This is the last day of the work week because of Lent. I hope I will be able to make it up to you guys.

So maybe what I am thankful for are --

1. Working and surviving the week

2. Understanding kids and husband

3. Company's bonus, despite it being small, at least we were still able to receive.