I'm sorry. I've been putting calamansi extract on my nipples so you won't feed at night anymore. It pains me, love, knowing that I'm lying to you. But the past few days, you were really hurting me when you feed.
I miss our closeness when you feed because now you don't even want to hug tight when we sleep anymore. Maybe this is the price that I pay? Maybe I am choosing this pain of regret and guilt over the pain of feeding?
I'm sorry, love. We're weaning you from mama, but that doesn't mean I love you less now. It just means I know you are strong enough now. I miss our time together. Never forget that I nursed you this far. You are forever my bunsoy.
