I bawled my eyes out when you drove away. That is the most anguishing feeling I have ever experienced, when you were taken away from me.
Sept 11 - we had a long day. We had lab tests done in preparation for scheduled consultations with my endocrinologist and Iya's cardio. I felt so tired that night and felt a fever kicking in.
Sept 12 - at dawn, i know i was already feverish. Miko woke up and wanted to sleep beside me. But I told him he can't because i'm sick. He went up to the bed, but sat up and said he was dizzy. So we told him he can sleep on daddy's other side, away from me.
In the morning, Miko and I both had fever already. I was wiping him down with wet wash cloths to bring his fever down. Iya was complaining of a "heavy head" in the afternoon, and at night, she had the fever, too.
Sept 13 - kuya also already had the fever. Miko's was subsiding already. I still had mine but had to tend to ate and kuya. Did we have colds this time? I can't remember.
Sept 14 - no more fever for the kids. Taking meds just to be sure we kicked that fever away. We were doing well, but still had colds.
Sept 15 - ate and miko started their online class again. Dad said he realized he couldn't taste/smell anything. So we had our rt-pcr swab test done via drive through testing facility. I reported for work in the afternoon.
Dad and I talked about bringing you to lola's if one of us gets a positive result. I didn't want to. I wanted us to stick together. We were talking in bed about my bilins -- to stay inside the room, be patient with each other, etc.
Sept 16 - i was getting ready to start my work. I was taking a bath when I received the email. I was positive for covid. Dad was still sleeping so i didn't know his results. I called my lead. I called lola to let them know that you were coming.
When dad woke up, he confirmed that he was positive too. I didn't go with you to Pacita because it was too painful for me. I cried and cried.
Sept 17 - i still have colds. Dad, too. I can't smell or taste anything now. Miko has colds too, while kuya has cough. It is tough being away from you.
Sept 18 - i think i can taste/smell a little now. It feels weird, not being able to smell. I miss your scent. I miss your hugs. The most difficult part is being away from you.
Sept 19 - which brings me to today. Today is difficult. I feel extra tired and generally unwell. I don't have fever, my oxygen is ok. I didn't cry, but my eyes still feel heavy. I miss you my babies. I wish you're safe and healthy and enjoying yourselves. I love you.....
