I know he will get angry if I interfered. This has happened a number of times already, always with I. I hate the cycle - him scaring I, I getting scared and crying, he berrates I for crying and scaring her even more. The cycle continues.
I tried to give Dad space and let him discipline I. But I had been crying for half an hour already, pleading and saying sorry. Dad doesn't listen and insists that saying sorry doesn't mean that all will immediately be well. I do not know how he envisions the night to stop.
If I stay in the room, I might think that I am not defending her. If I leave her, she might think I am abandoning her. But I couldn't stay and listen to her begging and saying sorry to Dad. I left the room and tried to calm down.
Finally, I could not take it any more. I started towards our room. I saw lola extending her hand from the door of their room, towards ours. I know she was praying over Dad. She could have just prayed in their room. Did it really sound that bad that she felt she had to physically come closer and extend her hand so that her prayers may be heard?
TO PART 4
This blog contains my thoughts and my ramblings, stories of our family, and random stuff I find along the way -- things I want my children to remember long after I am gone. May you learn more about Mommy as you read each post, and know that I love you all very much.
