Eyebags

Miko: *scratches ears*
Me: is it itchy? Do you want me to clean that for you?
Miko: tomorrow....
Me: kaya pa tiis?
Miko: i don't want you to get tired
Me: i'm not tired
Miko: your eyebags tell the truth

😲🙄

Halloween 2021

Documenting what we did today --

1. Candies and chips

2. Spirited away stickers in a "bloody" envelope c/o me and Niimbot 🙂

3. Harry Potter coloring pages c/o me and Google

4. Slime kits and pop-its via shoppee

While mixing in the slime activator, kids kept chanting "Holy Spirit activate". I asked "saan niyo natutunan yan?" Kids said "you always sing it to us"

Me: (ah I chant it when I feel overwhelmed with the kids. Napapalakas pala! 😅)

Soaking up the sun since we placed glow in the dark powder in their slime.

5. Brownie decorating

Hope you had a great time!!! ❤❤

our story starts

I bawled my eyes out when you drove away. That is the most anguishing feeling I have ever experienced, when you were taken away from me.

Sept 11 - we had a long day. We had lab tests done in preparation for scheduled consultations with my endocrinologist and Iya's cardio. I felt so tired that night and felt a fever kicking in.

Sept 12 - at dawn, i know i was already feverish. Miko woke up and wanted to sleep beside me. But I told him he can't because i'm sick. He went up to the bed, but sat up and said he was dizzy. So we told him he can sleep on daddy's other side, away from me.

In the morning, Miko and I both had fever already. I was wiping him down with wet wash cloths to bring his fever down. Iya was complaining of a "heavy head" in the afternoon, and at night, she had the fever, too.

Sept 13 - kuya also already had the fever. Miko's was subsiding already. I still had mine but had to tend to ate and kuya. Did we have colds this time? I can't remember.

Sept 14 - no more fever for the kids. Taking meds just to be sure we kicked that fever away. We were doing well, but still had colds.

Sept 15 - ate and miko started their online class again. Dad said he realized he couldn't taste/smell anything. So we had our rt-pcr swab test done via drive through testing facility. I reported for work in the afternoon.

Dad and I talked about bringing you to lola's if one of us gets a positive result. I didn't want to. I wanted us to stick together. We were talking in bed about my bilins -- to stay inside the room, be patient with each other, etc.

Sept 16 - i was getting ready to start my work. I was taking a bath when I received the email. I was positive for covid. Dad was still sleeping so i didn't know his results. I called my lead. I called lola to let them know that you were coming.

When dad woke up, he confirmed that he was positive too. I didn't go with you to Pacita because it was too painful for me. I cried and cried. 

Sept 17 - i still have colds. Dad, too. I can't smell or taste anything now. Miko has colds too, while kuya has cough. It is tough being away from you. 

Sept 18 - i think i can taste/smell a little now. It feels weird, not being able to smell. I miss your scent. I miss your hugs. The most difficult part is being away from you.

Sept 19 - which brings me to today. Today is difficult. I feel extra tired and generally unwell. I don't have fever, my oxygen is ok. I didn't cry, but my eyes still feel heavy. I miss you my babies. I wish you're safe and healthy and enjoying yourselves. I love you.....

prayer

The dad of someone I knew died today. They were rich and highly intellectual. But no amount of money could stop death. And I know dying could be soooo expensive. I knew it from when Lolo Romy died and we had to make funeral arrangements. I knew it when Daddy almost died 2x and we had to pay hospital bills.

Lord, you promised that your servants will not die sudden nor painful deaths. Let death come "like an old friend" for me and my loved ones. Let it not be expensive as we do not have the means for that. Let it not be traumatic for those that will be left behind.

Amen.

July 5

It's been awhile -- I've been caught up in life with the mom tasks. I must admit I had been battling some inner demons recently, too.

Kuya had been circumcised already. All my lessons and experiences on wound care didn't prepare me for this one. It seems like everything was new to me.😅 Well, being a mom means having a first time for everything, too, so 🤷‍♀️😆.

We also finished Kuya's modules for Grade 1. After a lot of internal struggles regarding the teacher's instructions, we were able to submit everything. Now, we are trying to catch up on Math. I know we can do this, kuya! I believe in you! :) The Lord has wondrous plans for you and, while it might be hard at times, I'm taking on the responsibility that God has given me -- to teach you and guide you in as much as I can, to prepare you to become independent.

Done also with enrollment for Iya and Miko. We were rushed, well, I dilly-dallied on this, sorry! ✌ But someone gave away their old books for free so we didn't have to buy for Miko. That was Php6000-worth of books!! Thank You, Lord, for the blessing! I hope you bless that family more, Lord. In return, we also shared your old books to younger users.... and we bought new books for leisure reading hahaha

Lastly, I've been through a dark place recently. Maybe I'll talk about it another time, maybe I won't. I'm just glad I was able to go through that rut. I'm better now. Thoughts still creep in but not as worse as before. Now I am reminded of my purpose, my new dreams. Before it was just me, me, me. I want to go to Egypt, I want to do whatever I want. But now that I'm a parent, the dreams change. Bonoy Gonzaga put it on point when he said every parent dreams of giving their children a much better life than they ever had -- that certainly hit the mark. So all the sacrifices, all the missed "fun" stuff -- they all seemed irrelevant. Now I remind myself that yeah, you three are the priority. And you three are the reason why dad and I work so hard. To give you a better life than we had.

So what a month it has been. I hope yours had been easier than mine was. I'm just a phone call or visit away if you need someone to talk to, someone to listen, or just someone to hug you and tell you that everything is going to be all right. I love you!! 

June 10 affirmation

I have been feeling a bit down these past few days. Last night, after work, we played in the rain. I also slept relatively early and had a good sleep. This morning, my phone's Bible app wouldn't load and so I thought about jotting down a dream I had in my thoughts diary instead of reading about the verse of the day ---

Had a suuuuuper nice dream.

We were in a place that felt like we go there some times but never really considered it home

Aki was walking around and chanced upon a group of junior high students. My thought was eto na dapat yung classmates ni kuya.

They accepted him! They were singing ang dancing together. Aki had no cane but they had their arms around him to guide him. Until they culminated by forming a circle with Aki in the middle, laughing and clapping his hands. When I approached him, he was teary eyed with happiness and said, let's live here na lang. I was so happy that I told dad immediately.

LOrd, I hope this is your way of telling me that Aki will be all right. That he will be accepted and celebrated despite of his disability. Thank You for finding delight in my son, Lord. 😃

And when I closed my OneNote app, the Bible verse of the day has loaded and see what it says ---

For I have satiated the weary soul, and I have replenished every sorrowful soul.

Jeremiah 31:25 KJV

Truly, Lord, you have replenished my soul. Thank You, thank You so much!

June 7

Today's verse of the day is --

I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you. I will remove your stony heart from your body and replace it with a living one,

Ezekiel 36:26 CEB

The prayer goes like this --

Reading the whole chapter, I feel like I am reminded that sometimes God allows us to be in the dark so that we know that He is the light. There are times when we pray so hard about something, only to claim victory over it for ourselves when we achieve what we pray for. We forget how we begged God for it in prayer, and it is only through God's grace that we are "victorious".

So never forget your prayers, please. Stay grateful for all of your blessings. Stay humble, stay kind. I love you.

P.S. don't forget our verse yesterday -- God gives you everything you need (not want) and more so that you can share your blessings. 😘

and the truth was revealed 😅

Me: (showing Iya my wedding ring) look at the engraving, it says "Darwin" and the date of our wedding

Iya: 10.02.08 so October 2 2008?

Me: yep!

Iya: but that can't be kasi kuya was born February 23 2009

Me: (hate where this is leading) eh ano naman?

Iya: diba after you get married, it takes years before you have a baby?

Me: (aha! A way out) di kaya. Ilang month lang ba ang baby inside a mommy's tummy? It doesn't take years naman so, sometimes, after marriage, the wife gets pregnant agad.

Iya: So, October... (starts counting fingers) November, December, January, February. FOUR MONTHS LANG YUN MAMA!!!

Me: 😳😵

‐-----‐-----------

Iya: 1,772,136 points

Mama: 0 points

homeschooling

Question: magbahagi ng karanasan mo ngayong pandemic

Aki: bawal lumabas, ang klase ko naging modules na lang

Me: tapos ano dapat yung laging suot? Yung nakatakip dito sa ilong mo? (Mask dapat)

Aki: pore strip?

😮🤣

Devotional

Sharing this wonderful devotional from the Bible app that I read today regarding forgiveness..

fighting!!

Since you told me I was always sleeping, I'm happy to report that I've fought off laziness and sleepiness this weekend.

I only had like 1.5 hours of siesta and was very productive with our personal action items. Brought Iya and Miko to the dentist. Kuya and I were able to catch up on our school work (2 subjects to go!) I even made tuna carbonara for dinner! And squeezed in exercise time!

Thank You, Lord, for giving me strength this week. 

Slime

We made slime last night!!!

Oreo for ate

Strawberry milkshake for me

Unicorn bubble pop for Miko

Did you have fun? Coz I did!! ❤❤❤

sorry again

I was crappy last night again. Snapping over the noise the door makes. I'm sorry :(

:(

Last Saturday, I opened up to dad about this impulse-control disorder that I think I might have (not naming it here for now). I've noticed this since I was young, but it has become more evident now that I'm an adult.

I was so ashamed of myself because I didn't know how dad would react. But, to be honest, it felt really good knowing that he knows, and that I could talk to him when the impulse strikes again. I know this will help curb the impulse and I won't have to feel guilty afterwards.

Dad was, uhm, hesitant to believe. But in the end, he reminded me that everything will be ok and that I could talk to him about it.

Mental health is something I prioritize now. This thing is actually said to be associated with other impulsive disorders, anxiety and depression. I really pray that God cleanses you from all these geneological sicknesses. I hope you be mentally, physically and emotionally healthy. I will be here to support you and love you all the way.

Who will separate us from Christ’s love? Will we be separated by trouble, or distress, or harassment, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword?

Romans 8:35 CEB

https://bible.com/bible/37/rom.8.35.CEB

....

Today you told me I sleep all the time. Like the whole day. And that I don't spend time with you.

I just want you to know that I'm trying. Trying my best to fight the battles within me.

I'm sorry guys... there are a lot of things I can do better at.

Mother's Day greeting

You guys sent me a video for Mother's Day this year --

"Hi mama! Thank you for loving us, taking care of us and letting us know that God loves us"

Hooray for affirmations!! Thank You, Lord, that above all things that I tried to teach my kids, it is Your love that is #1 in their minds. Thank You for showing me that I am doing the job You sent me here for. ❤

John 14

This is the chapter pala where Jesus describes the Holy Trinity. I never really fully understood it -- how three personas are one. Here is what Jesus said:

   • Don’t you believe that I am in the Father and the Father is in me? The words I have spoken to you I don’t speak on my own. The Father who dwells in me does his works.

   • The Companion, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you everything and will remind you of everything I told you.

Okay, I still don't fully understand it. But it is comforting to hear Jesus talk about it. A priest once said that humans are not capable of understanding the complexity of God's works. Kaya nga hindi tayo god diba? The trinity remains once of those mysteries that as Catholics, we continue to have faith in even when we don't fully understand.

One more thing I like about this chapter are the promises that Jesus said:

   • My Father’s house has room to spare. If that weren’t the case, would I have told you that I’m going to prepare a place for you? O diba, wala kang atras, Jesus really wants to be with you in heaven.

   • I will do whatever you ask for in my name, so that the Father can be glorified in the Son. When you ask me for anything in my name, I will do it. Kaya pala we say "In Jesus' name" when we pray

   • I won’t leave you as orphans. I will come to you. Soon the world will no longer see me, but you will see me. Wait, this comes with a bilin -- and I find it true for me, too, for when I'm gone. Jesus (or me) remains in you because... Whoever loves me will keep my word. That means, you should remain obedient to what the Lord (or I) taught you. Only then can you say that I remain in you.

   • and finally.... You have heard me tell you, ‘I’m going away and returning to you.’ If you loved me, you would be happy that I am going to the Father, because the Father is greater than me.

I do hope you read this chapter for yourself. Let me know what key learnings you got from it.

May 13 resolutioms

I read somewhere that New Year's resolutions usually does not work because people anchor their commitments to the New Year. If they miss a day or two of their commitment, they feel bad for themselves and give up entirely.

The article continues on to say -- screw that! Make a commitment to yourself, and if you fail to honor it, try again. Often times, we get so hard on ourselves for not keeping our resolutions that we fall back to the same, sometimes destructive, pattern. This resonated with me because, yeah, when I skip an exercise day or ate a lot of sweets, I do become hard on myself. But after reading that article, I try to be more conscious of how I talk to myself. I should be motivating instead of shaming myself.

So starting today, here are the things I would like to do on a daily basis. If I skip a day or two, forgive me please as I forgive myself, but I shall get up and try again the following day 😊

  •  say the rosary or hear mass

  •  study with Aki

  •  read books for self-growth

  •  read the Bible

  •  write an entry on this blog

  •  exercise

...and I'm leaving you with some reminders to speak kindly to yourself because I love you and God loves you even more. 😘

Miko's Questions

You've been asking very difficult questions lately! 😲

1. On your anniversary, are you and dad going to have sex?

Me: Why do you ask that?

Miko: Because you're married

Me: You know, sex is a very intimate act between mom and dad, and so we don't talk about it with other people, not even you.

Me afterwards: Frantically messaging the ninangs if I answered correctly. 

This is the first time you asked about sex in the context of mom and dad so it really caught me off-guard. We talked about it, but never really related it to us personally. I wasn't prepared to be hearing from this question this early!! 😆

2. (Weeks after) When did you and dad have sex?

Me: (in my mind: do I tell him with every child? Do I tell him more than each child? Do I answer him at all?) I repeat my line about sex being an intimate act, and added "but I can tell you one thing -- sex is also a means for reproduction" (I'll talk to him about that some day soon)

3. (Same night as #2) What happens if you and dad (makes gestures of separating)

Dad: (tries to "not understand" the gestures and asks other things to distract him)

Miko: (finally getting his message across despite not verbalizing it. He makes signs for breaking up, separate, etc)

Me: (preparing to answer along the lines of custody, both mom and dad loving you inspite not being together, etc)

Dad: til death do us part

Me: (really shocked that with a single phrase he managed to show how he really values this marriage that much. I proceed to talk about the marriage vows and how we made a promise in front of God and the government that we will stay together. Shared Matthew 19:6 "What God has joined together, let no man separate", and ended with Miko should not be worried about it because even if dad and I get into disagreements or fights, we will always honor our promise to each other.)

Lord, I thank You for the wisdom that You have given my son. May You cultivate this wisdom and use this for Your glory. May He grow up to use your gifts, and be compassionate, giving to others, and sharing Your Good News. Amen

from dad re: smoking incident

It's been a while since the smoking incident. I've given your dad the cold shoulder for days, but we've made up and didn't talk about it anymore.

One day, we were cuddling and I told him "pag nakita ulit kitang naninigarilyo, di na ako bibili ng gamot mo ha" siyempre it was in jest lang naman, but half meant. It was just so frustrating worrying about someone when they don't care at all.

He answered me with "Wag mo na sabihin, nahihiya nga ako sa iyo eh" and that tugged at my heart. I didn't say anything anymore because, even deep in my heart, I was not gloating. What I was thinking was -- your dad is a huge part of my life. We may not be lovey dovey most of the time, but I will be terribly sad if he is taken from us.

That being said, let me reiterate to please don't start smoking. Nothing good will come out of it.

Love you kids! ❤

April 4

Dad and I made up. As usual, we brushed it under the rug and never spoke about smoking again. 

Pressing issues over the Holy Week was that Ninang Jaye tested positive for covid. Now I don't have close friends. These set of women who we call the ninangs are the closest to what I can consider friends. Don't get me wrong, I get along well with a lot of people. But I envy dad and Iya who makes friends and connections easily. Dad has friends from when he was a kid. I do not. The ninangs are who I have. They are my sisters. So to learn that one of them is having difficulty breathing is heartbreaking for me. 

I've been crying because I was so scared and worried. I watched Grey's Anatomy last night until my eyes could no longer take it and had to close na. I didn't want to think about the worst case scenario. I just want to sleep away the day. 

I was able to speak to Jaye this morning and we had a few more tears. She is weak but fighting. Still able to laugh at things. Lord, please don't take away my sister. Touch her with Your Healing Hand and cleanse her lungs so she can breathe better. This covid thing is really hitting close to home. Please shield my family, most especially Iya and Darwin who have heart problems. Protect them, Lord. 

So during this break, kuya and I had been walking around the streets (masks on) for a bit of exercise. Thank You, Lord, for these moments with my firstborn. 

Dad and I also talked about the possibility of getting another property, i.e. house. Lord, I offer our plans to You. This is for our future, so we are not dependent on our children when we grow old. I hope this plans pleases You, Lord. Make me and my husband strong (physically, mentally and emotionally) to build this dream with You.

April 2 - Smoking

We have a family history of diabetes and stroke in our family. It is clear that I start with this because I want this message to be clear -- I don't want you to smoke.

Smoking does absolutely nothing good for you. It is an addiction that brings with it a plethora of associated diseases.

I'm feeling this passionatw about smoking today because yesterday we caught your dad smoking a cigarette at the store. It makes me so angry because I feel like he keeps forgetting about the two times when he almost died. It might sound narcissistic, but it was my battle, too. I underwent a lot of stress during those times, too. I was so scared of losing dad and having to raise you guys by myself. So him, just throwing all of those away, really gets into my nerves. It's beyond angry, it makes me not want to care anymore. Ofcourse I can't really not care. He's still my husband. But it just makes me 😡🤬😡🤬😡🤬

Bottomline, no smoking please. Cigarettes, vape, weed, anything. None of those. Try to live a healthy life, a happy life, please. I love you all too much to watch you throw your life away. 

Te quiero!

Update: 

Adding my tags, I saw this. And it might be God's way of saying to forgive dad just as He has forgiven us and even sent His son to die for us. Ugh, Lord, some times it's difficult to follow You. But, I will do my best.

April 1

Today I start the day grateful -- 

1. For a restful sleep

2. For (although it was a difficult workday yesterday), I am more hopeful today

3. For the opportunity to have a leisure day, regardless if I want to do "work" stuff like trim nails, answer email, pay bills, etc -- basta leisurely

I hope I feel better today than yesterday. I know spending time with you will do just that. 😍

how am I

I feel like I do nothing but work this week. I wake up, I start work, then I feel sleepy immediately after logging out of work ☹ is this another symptom of depression?

It makes me feel guilty that I don't spend time with you. 

This is the last day of the work week because of Lent. I hope I will be able to make it up to you guys.

So maybe what I am thankful for are --

1. Working and surviving the week

2. Understanding kids and husband

3. Company's bonus, despite it being small, at least we were still able to receive.

Grateful - March 30

1. Fasting Blood Sugar of 99!! Looks like I'm on the right track when it comes to my medicine and food. :) Just need to be consistent with the exercising.

2. Upcoming Officer's Performance Bonus. Knowing that this is coming makes me excited and giddy. I hope it is enough for my planned expenses -- payment for the house, a ring, etc.

There is no #3. Yesterday was difficult for me. I was uninspired to work. I was mentally just going over my list of tasks without doing anything really significant. I was also sleepy when we were saying the rosary. I fell asleep right after. Woke up when daddy came in the room. Watched one of my episodes, then fell asleep again. Then this morning, I'm having a hard time thinking of things that made me happy.

Guys, mom's not perfect and I do get these days sometimes. I want you to know that when you do get these days, I will always have your back. I can cook for you, clean for you, cuddle you -- do everything until you feel better. Because mom loves you no matter what, even when things are not okay. (That's just me -- imagine how much your Father in Heaven loves you, which is so so much more than mom 😉)

I love you!

Palm Sunday 2021

This year, because of the pandemic, we were not allowed to go on Visita Iglesia, not even to visit a single church to reflect on the stations of the cross. One of the thoughts that keep crossing my mind is that the responsibility of teaching you is now more evidently placed on me. Especially since all your classes are online and there is limited catholic school activities that teaches you about the faith.

So on Palm Sunday 2021, we set up our own modest stations of the cross. I let you read through all 14 stations. Then at the end of it, you said a short prayer thanking God for his sacrifices for us.

We also attended mass online. Thank God one of our neighbors offered to share their palm fronds so we were still able to make our palaspas.

All in all, it was a good celeberation. We agreed to watch Prince of Egypt (my childhood version was The Ten Commandments, but you might appreciate the animated version better 🙂) and The Passion of Christ (so we are reminded of Jesus' suffering for us).

I hope Mama and Dad instills in you the love of God. 😘

Grateful - March 29

1. Us celebrating Palm Sunday (details in another post)

2. Your shirts that dad and I made together 😍 I got the design and weeded, he ironed on the shirt.

3. Me realizing that every weekend, I trim your nails and clean your ears. And I am grateful that I have time for that. It's that one time in a week that I get to touch you individually, and serve you. One day, you will learn to do this on your own. My wish is that you won't forget the times I did it for you.

Love you guys!!

Grateful - March 28

1. Completing all errands yesterday - grocery, getting car docs notarized

2. Quick date with dad

3. Customizing my new cosmetic bag

the inspiration

the bag when I bought it

finished product ❤

Grateful - March 27

1. Hugs finally after being in insolation for a covid scare 😍

2. Jude (Xpander) documents were received yesterday.

3. Watched Monster in Paris with you guys - being grateful that I have this time to spend with you instead of catching up on work

Grateful - Mar 26

1. Progress on work tasks.

2. Having no covid symptoms despite being exposed to a Patient Under Investigation last Monday

3. Having time to watch a movie with you guyslast night

4. Hugs, finally! (After praying with alcohol and facing away 😅)

March 3

I may have depression.

I say "may" because I don't want to diagnose myself. But 2 years ago, I went through this and the psychiatrist told me I keep smiling on the outside, but I'm struggling inside.

I'm sorry that I had to have it. It means it now goes into your Family History. Doesn't mean you have to have it. But it means you have to work hard to not have it. Make sure you find out what makes you happy, and to not succumb to the worldly race. Eat healthy, exercise. Do these things I never found time for.

I keep thinking maybe it's just weakness of character. I don't know the answer yet. I want to prove to everyone that I am capable and strong. And this, this feeling that I have right now, where I only want to sleep the rest of the week away -- this is failing my expectations of myself. You taking care of me as I lie in bed with a headache, while I am grateful for, is failing my expectations as a parent. Sorry. Mom isn't perfect. I don't want you to have emotional baggages because I was weak.

Is it the narcissistic saboteur in me? Saying I am not fit, I am not worthy, I fail. Or is it really something I cannot control? Is it hormonal imbalance? Is it not my fault?



----- this was initially written March 3, 2021, but i lost my train of thought and left this open-ended. 🤷‍♀️ basta I love you and want you know that if you have these thoughts, just come home to me, please. If you are having difficulties finding something positive within you, just come home to mama. Because I know every little beautiful thing about you. (Eh mama lang ako, what more si Lord diba?) ---

March 19, 2021

You make me so proud. Always. 😘

Te amo!

March 6, 2021

I took up Physical Therapy in college. I cried over failed exams; I beat myself up over a failed subject. I did all I can to make sure I pass the board exams on the first try (because we literally couldn't afford a second one had I failed). BUT, I never really practiced PT for more than 2 years because I already joined Accenture immediately after boards.

I know what (most of) you're thinking right now. Sayang ang binayad sa colllege. I feel that way sometimes  too, and think of what could have been if I pursued PT.

Today, I brought our kasambahay who doesn't recognize letters and numbers to the opthalmologist. The doctor struggled to get a pain score from her. I can hear the frustration in his voice. But I was able to help by showing her a visual scale, something I learned some 15+ years ago. It's a small thing. But I felt God is helping me realize that some times He puts us in situations where we don't understand why things are happening. We constantly ask the rationale, but like the cliché goes, it's all part of His big plan.

I never would've understood pain scale, or kept (mostly) calm when Darwin or any member of our family were in health crisis, had it not been for the knowledge I gained in college. All my mentors contributed to me being able to digest medical jargons, and thus helped me to help the people I love.

So takeaway is: if you're currently going through something difficult, it might not be a failed subject or upcoming boards, know that God is preparing you for something. It might be hard to understand right now, but that's what faith is -- when you trust even when you are having difficulties to understand why.

I pray for your joy and healing. 😘

Miko at 8 y/o

Me: the president just declared Dec 24 and 31 as working days. That means I need to work on those days

Miko: But you're too beautiful to work!!

*ahem ahem* 😁😂

Welcome back

What a hiatus! We've been silent for a long time. I almost forgot about this blog. But you were asking for your godparents so I had to dig up this old thing and make you kwento of why I started this. Told you that when I'm gone, you can just read up on my old stories here.

So here I am again, making kwento. I love you guys, never forget that. Always look after one another. May God bless you and keep you 😘😘